November 21, 2020•275 words
Weekends doesn't mean much for me since being jobless. But... to stay synchronized with my husband's schedule, I've decided to only do the Python bootcamp on weekdays.
I had a hard time today about the fact of not having a job. I've searched the web for some quotes to bring me some happiness, but instead of a happy one I stumbled across this quote from Aung San Suu Kyi:
Jobless people will have no self-confidence. And they feel they are worthless because when you don't have a job you have to rely on someone.
It's exactly how I feel right now :(
A little backstory on being jobless (since 2012). I got a burnout, got depressed, looked for help, tried the freelance road, did not work. Got very frustrated and depressed again. I looked for help again, this time at a psychiatrist. Got diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder at age 48. Everything made sense, but... you're born with Autism, there is no getting better. So I felt (still do sometimes, like today) there is no hope in getting a job. It's not only my Autism what makes getting a job difficult but also my age. I turned 50 this year.
Another thing is that I felt like my brain-cells where starving. That's the reason I decided to do this #100DaysOfCode Python bootcamp. To keep me busy, to keep my brain busy, to learn something instead of playing computer-games and watching Netflix.
I have noticed that it helps. But today it's weekend. Today there is no bootcamp to keep me busy. For the first time in my life I gonna be happy when Monday arrives :)